Just Checking In

my apologies for not posting more recently. Looks like July has just about gotten away from U/us without a whole lot of new and interesting things to report. Sure i have had a number of thoughts and fantasies floating through my mind, but it is the real life adventures that i think have created the readership.

Don't despair however, for more colorful adventrues are on surely on the horizon. i have had at least one "date" with the woman that dominates me, and that relationship will continue to evolve. It is very interesting that She has complete control over the entire situtation,... where W/we go, what W/we do, etc. and i am always thrilled whenever She gets around to "taking me" for Her pleasure.

Let me be more explicit here. She who must be obeyed, decided a few months ago that i seem to be a good male submissive that is worthy of Her time. She is a very busy professional, and She has numerous social commitments that keep Her on the move. There are certainly times when i an unclear as to what, if anything, that i bring to "the table", since She seems to get pretty much anything that She wants,.. and for good reason - She is highly intellegent, beautiful, engaging, and can be incredibily sexual. So what do i do for Her given all the options that She has?

i suppose that it is that i am a good submissive. i do not bring expectations or pressures for Her to "do this or that" into the relationship. i simply enjoy being with Her and i thrill on waatching Her be Herself. It is endearing to me,.. and it keeps me coming back for more. i think that She has fun "using me" for Her entertainment/enjoyment,... and it may be that W/we are a once a month thing,... that evolves into something else down the road. Even if She takes me no further than where W/we have progrssed to today, i feel that i am the better for it.

i do think that Her presence has shifted the power exchange in my bedroom with my Wife. i can be a bit of a switch (hope that doesn't shock anyone!),... and my Wife enjoys having me dominated by She Who Must be Obeyed,.. so much in fact that my Wife is excited and turned on by the stories that i share with Her,.. which makes Her feel (and act) quite slutty. It is unclear where this may all go, but for now i feel some change in the breeze. Change caused by a number of factors,.. all of which center on power exchanges and explorations of sexuality.

W/we are having fun!

Heating Back Up

In honor of Independance Day, W/we took off some time to enjoy the local countryside and weather on a family vacation. Over the course of the last week or two, my Wife and i had the luxury (and pleasure) to visit and talk and indulge in various types of intimate discourse. It was a great time to reflect and re-engage in O/our shared passions and personal discoveries regarding O/our combined adventures - sexual and otherwise. Given that W/we spent most of the last two weeks away provides insight as to why i have not been posting,... and this post will help to articulate O/our ongoing condition (so to speak).

Although my Wife and i had numerous chances to be intimate, She choose to not allow me entry to Her, given that She has found that She longs for the Big Man, and that His tongue and cock and overall persona are what She truly desires from a sexual partner. That is a big, strong, highly focused man (focused on her pleasure,.. on Her pussy,... and on bringing Her off through hours of intense and deliberate sexual intimacy). She and i have never been able to sustain even os much as 45 minutes of sexual contact without us both climaxing and falling asleep. She longs for the animalistic sexual energy of His mouth and arms and body, slapping against Her in long, heavy strokes,... it is the shear power that He brings to the relationship that i can not hope to provide,.. and will never be given the chance to try. That is in part the result of my years of acting (and being) the submissive sissy and/or pet. She just can't find Her way to view me as a powerful sexual man.

She is not certain where to "cast" me as a result of Her lost need for my sexual ministrations. i am not allowed access to Her breasts or pussy or lips for that matter,... for those are for Him (or whomever She chooses as Her male),... She has considered having me commit substainally to my new Dom,.. but that is a relationship that is rife with logistic challenges (W/we both have children,.. and W/we live over an hour apart via car),... so i am left with sexual excitement provided to me vicariously through Her exploits and the occasional humping opportunity.

It did dawn upon me that theis past holiday weekend brought with it substantial family obligations (the good kind) and travel needs (chiefly related to summertime vacations) so all extramarital relationships have slowed down as should be expected (and is appropriate for that matter). It will be interesting to see how July and August shape up as the "heat of the summer" hits and internal temperatures being to simmer. Libidos everywhere be ready!

The New Dom

Life certainly has its ways of changing and evolving. As those that read this blog know, i have been "taken under the wing" of most gracious and giving Dominant Woman recently much to the pleasure of both me and my Wife. Ms. Z, as i shall call Her, has been in the scene for many years and has substantial experience with both mental and physical aspects of power exchange.

This past weekend, She took me with Her to a local dungeon and allowed me to watch Her discipline Her female bottom/slave, who She has known for years. As i sat nearby on the floor, the two of them entered into a most remarkable scene,... sharing an intimacy that could only be described as poetic,... Ms. Z had bound her to a cross and flogged her in a manner that totally overpowered me, for i had not witnessed such an intimate exchange between dom and sub before. It was clear that the dance that they danced was born from years of love and devotion,.. and that both women were energized and spiritually centered (not to mentioned exhausted) from the exchange.

Perhaps the most telling part of the evening came from a discussion that Ms. Z and i had regarding some of the writings of Mistress Milliscent. Ms. Z wanted to let me know that Her strong belief was that Dom and sub are in many ways on equal footing in the relationship, since each is dependant on the other for the experience and the power exchange to happen,.. and therefore one is fully dependant and needing on the other to be fully committed and involved for the relationship to flourish. Although the roles are such that the sub may be objectified and punished,... it is through the sharing of the subs suffering and subjugation that both Dom and sub can find peace and freedom. Quite a lovely concept really. Not however for the faint of heart.

Sustainability of a Dom and sub relationship is something that i hope to further explore through these writings,.. so i hope that this blog's readers stay tuned.

Mistress Milliscent's New Blog

Just wanted to pen a note calling to attention Mistress Milliscent's new blog. She is clearly a most remarkable Dom and i find that She has a way to speak directly to my soul,... reaching those hiden places of surrender and passion that only a true and experienced Dom can articulate. It is lukcy perhaps that She lives quite a distance from me,.. or it would be that much harder to concentrate on the day to day mundanity of life.

Thank You Mistress Milliscent!

http://www.milliscent.com/blog/

Some Random Thoughts and Updates

Well folks, my beautiful Wife has had a bit of a tiff with the Big Man, which may put an end to their incredibly sorrid affair. It came about because of some family issues on His side, which honestly were not unexpected. There is no doubt that the situation has cooled considerably,.. and it may be cold and gone before too long. But that is not the end of this story by a long way.

You see, what i have learned from this entire journey is that although my Wife and i have come to greatly enjoy Her/our adventures into cuckolding and my domination,... and that through the process W/we have grown closer and more engaged,... it is also true that She no longer views me as a man with a cock that can bring Her satisfaction. i amn either a puppy or a wimp or a sissy or all three and that is NOT the kind of man that She needs to satisfy Her sexual appetite. No She needs and must have a real man's cock thrusting into Her, animalistically, passionately, wantonly,... and no little doggie or sissy cock will be able to meet the demand. i am no longer in a spot to fulfill Her sexual needs.

For example, She very much enjoyed making me hump the bed the other night,.. and She loved making me lick up my little puddle of love spunk (*giggle*) but at the peek of my arousal She confessed to fantasizing about someone else's cock thrusting in and out of Her,... and my complete humiliation and submission to Her only drives Her to be more explicit in Her demonstrating that i am no longer considered to being even close to adequate. i have change completely my station in life to Her.

Having others dominate me is only a logical extenstion of Her casting me aside as a lover. i have no real use to Her for sexual satisfaction,.. so i can be used and trained and dominated by other strong, sexually dominant woman for that may bring Her some entertainment. It certainly will help to keep me down and appropriately subjugated to Her (and all woman from that matter). This weekend in fact, two very dominant woman will be having their way with me,.. and it will be interesting to see what they decide to do with me. i will be very surprised if i get to touch their flesh at any time,.. but the business end of a cane, that seems most likely. i will be returned as a sobbing, groveling, humiliated piece of meat,... eager and willing to serve in anyway She desires.

So the journey continues. i am one lucky and thankful little slave in the making, don't you think?

Humiliation and its effects

Emma posted on http://mrsemmakelly.blogspot.com/ an interesting post which got me thinking about humiliation and my need for it/reaction to it. As you know, i have begun to see a very dominant woman outside O/our marriage at my Wife's suggestion. Whenever W/we get together, which is fairly rare, it is a very soulful experience since She has the uncanny knack to see right through me,.. and for whatever reason i can see through Her as well, so i believe that W/we can both tell where O/our relationship is going. She will likely have me in any way that She wants, and W/we both know it. For that matter, so does my Wife.

Upon returning home and going to bed, i have the chance to watch my lovely Wife lie inches from me with Her breasts straining to be held by Her flimsy night clothes (She purposefully wears them now that it is nearly summer) and i lie there thinking that neither my Wife or newly acquainted Dom will allow me the right to touch and/or fondle them,.. and that deep kissing is out as well,.. yet both are quick to tell me intimate details of their other sexual encounters and their related ecstatic pleasures - in part to drive my little libido to substantial distraction.

So there i lie,... hard as a rock,.. throbbing and completely taken in my own private lust. i feel so totally dominated that i am unable to sleep or read or do pretty much anything but focus on the incredible beauty and power of these two woman,.. and their control over me. It is completely humiliating to know that each is actively seeking male companionship while i lie awake at night totally emersed in my submission to them. What can i not give them? What manly skills do i lack? What do they need that i am clearly unable to provide? The psychology of my submission to these women is fasinating,... and they are experts at keeping me on the trail of self loathing and submission to them,... all without whips and chains. Remarkable.

Why their men are not sissies or doggies of course. What self respecting woman would fuck a dog or a sissy? Is that what this is all about? Is this what so many woman are looking for but have not found the right male to dominate? Is seems so easy in my case,... i was just begging for it!

Becoming a slave??

This recent development has been occurring as a complete surprise to me,.. and yet it has filled a great deal of my waking and sleeping thoughts. Specifically, i am writing about one of the women that my Wife has suggested that i pursue. She is a very beautiful, dominant woman that has captured by soul in a very short period of time. W/we met through Ok Cupid, which allows individuals the ability to select "friends" based on a large set of questions that test kinkiness, honesty, trust, political accumen, etc. A very broad group fo values to be certain. Well this woman and i were by far the most aligned personalities i had ever experienced. i wrote Her to say "can You believe our alignment??" and She returned with "Wow,.. must be something here!" So W/we met.

Of course, the whole process was something that i kept in front of my Wife,... and i even fancied that She and "this woman's" husband would hit it off, for He is very handsome and dominant as well. That may happen, but it is far off in the future. For now, my new acquaintance has taken me on as some kind of project (i think) for She is giving me quite a bit of attention,... and Her dominant ways are pushing me down into subspace on a daily basis. i can only imagine the scene with Her and Her Husband over to O/our home for dinner, with me doing all the service as the three of them laugh and drink and eat and carry on. i am such a little sissy. The whole thought of it, me being dominated by the three of them, lead by this new woman has me totally overwhelmed.

Wow!!